grieving trilogy

PART I : misery forever

silver sky, poisonous atmosphere
i can't believe such day could be
all the visions belied my expectations
i cannot pretend to hide my fears

finally reached to my house of pain
i came alone with all my innocence
the lies of plain mind tend to cover
more trust, more suffer...
i feared that magic was playing with me
i knew, so hard to believe simple dreams
so i stepped back to reject
what a might, couldn't leave that deadhouse
and everything paralyzed a while

it was too late

better unborn than living that tragedy
all the seconds of my memory
drip a new tear out of my eyes
but the tears are not enough to tell
if only this marble bricks would be real
i would build up my desolation
where i would go now?what i would do?
i withdraw all my optimism back
just eternity will know me more

i have to get on with this

PART II : i am still alone

mused by deceptive tears
i thought something would change
but i was the only one in the room
now i see, i am still alone

sear me to welcome again
i can't forge the scars of past
i was different, need more satisfaction
for a perfect recovery in me

 i left my leaves to vortexes
to undress, for a bloody serenade
i confuse all my weak knowledge
but this can't be a mankind greed

i can't stand behind this violence
give me reasons to isolate passions
all the unknown feelings leaned on me
i feel, breathe of suicide covered me...

my hands tied up against
inject me more tear to diffuse
corrupted by that shameful judgement
the unfortunate decisions are consuming
i am totally shattered

i am still alone...

PART III : the return

relapse of the obsolete sorrows modified me
slayed all rafined sympathies for the life
the remnants of cruelty bounding the expectations
ominous memories eradicated the elevated feelings

agile craves lessened, profound enervation
intervals of gloomy seconds unlike to extend
my frigid behaviours concealed pale temptations
i'm groping my obscure future to mingle

of slight hopes faded away, stable misery
prospers on life theories built a new vision towards
fragile memories twinkled, revealed tomorrows
i return, i consumed all my modesty on destiny

birth of this nw dream confused me
difeerent projection on my past replayed
that absolute moods belong to creativity
define alternative terms, unseen maturity

i return...might of bonds recollected me
the shattered entity has a static paradigma
lofty spirit of that revolution erects
i'm the one unfathomed by this energy
methink it's the sign on the return
i return...