quake in the thoughts

i used to live the life inverted
my world of fear, too obsolete beliefs
the analog thoughts presented an utopia
hiding from myself in my brave
depressions joined as if a parasite
i need more simplicity

couraging, so easy for me
to combine all the weird feelings
only learned to live unwished ones
i have to live asymmetries mixture

how strange for me
to adapt the high life norms
can't mean the tears after funeral
as i can't bare pleasure forever

i remove all the tears from my eyes
have no feeling inside, negatively affected
cold blooded behaviours killed my humanity
i conceal mental state of being unnatural
that weird paradigma i relied collapse
how i cold deny the life again

i was consoled with my content feelings
nothing remained from that outstanding philosophy
only my reason of improving individuality
ceded among the collide of truth and lie

i was buried under my crumbling thoughts...